Quality vs. Quantity

Yes! This isn't going to be easy for me to write this blog because I still have problem with Quality vs. Quantity.

1) I do need to get over from holding the grudge against the old job (manufacturing job) where I got fired from.
2) I also need to learn to forgive them too which is not easy to do because I am still hurting.
3) There are some days, this come to my mind about the problems I had with them, and I can't seems to be able to erase it. This is like a record player and playing over and over again. I need to be set free from this hurt and anger too.
4) I know that the Lord commanded us to do such as to forgive them and not to hold grudge against them. I have fail that in every way. I have struggle with this daily. I do want to do what the Lord had commanded me to do.

Of course, I had made way too many excuses why I am right, and why I shouldn't been fired. The main reason, why I got fired was because I lost my redheaded hot temper against the line leader that I didn't agree with. Being redheaded is not the excuse. Losing my temper is not godly things to do in the first place.

I am for quality and not for quantity. The way as I see the manufacturing job is going now is that they are for quantity and not for quality. I can't understand why and why they are doing this.

I can't see myself giving a product to God that is a blemish product that I just made and knowing that isn't is perfect without blemish. I can see myself want to give Him the best of the best product without blemish.

To me, that they don't care what kind of quality of the product that they are making for others to buy. I can't understand how can they do this and not care about the quality.

Therefore, how can we continue to do quantity without quality. This blow my mind away to think about this, and this does get me so frustrated to think about this.

Job hunting isn't easy for me in spike of the fact that I have over 10 plus years in manufacturing experience. I have absolutely no desire to return to manufacturing job again because of this kind of problem that I don't want to face again.

I am thankful for a job that I am currently at which I truly enjoy serving others and helping other to find the books that they are looking for, but I do need a better paying job with benefit and fix schedule. Having this current job is better than no job at all which is a blessing to have. I am not losing my temper at this current job which is a true blessing.

Please do continue to pray for me to find a better job and for me to be able to overcome this problem of grudge and unforgiveness.

Still, I can't work for a manufacturing company that put quantity in the first place without quality. Yes, this wasn't my first time for being fired. I was fired back in May of 1998 because they wanted quantity and not quality, but I didn't lose my temper at that time.

I do want to do what is right and godly.

We all need to pray for one another to encourage one another to hang in there. Please do pray for me.

BoldLion for Christ,
'Guerite ~ BoldLion